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Wednesday, January 10, 2007

You know, years past by, life goes on and..its no doubt full of ups and downs. I have landed into Orientation I again..which means i've been promoted to a senior J1. Ever since i've received the news 3 months ago, i've always fought a battle with myself, and telling myself that "Hey, its okie. You have to give in everything you have right till you graduate next year(2008) thats it." However, when i stepped into the school for the first day, i began to cry. I dont know why but i just lost hope. I joined my OG for the second day of orientation and everyone welcomed me with a clap, even though i declared that i am a senior J1. It makes me feels a little more in place rather than awkward. Today was my first actual lesson as a senior J1. Lectures, lectures and that weird feeling with the new J1s at the LTs makes me wonder, am i really in place? I went back home, and i saw my mum. I didnt show it to her that i was actually feeling bad about it but i just couldnt help it but cry. Tears just kept flowing like a river and it wont stop. but...i finally realised that i've been showered with a lot of love by my mum. When she asked me about the day today, i couldnt resist but to cry again. Guess what? The usual strict and fierce mum actually told me this, "You cant help it dear. People will definitely why you were being retained and stuff like that, but you got to face it and get strong. You have to be strong and not be afraid to tell them that you're retained due to bad results. If you ever have the fear of admitting that, no one is ever gonna respect you because you cant even respect yourself and treasure yourself. Its okay dear, you just have to move on."
I was so touched by what my mum said and i cried non-stop. Although my mum still doesnt realise that i was crying but its okie. I just feel i owe her so much in the past and that i may not have realise her deep love for me if it was not for this setback. If it wasnt for this setback, i would have stuck to my stinking attitude and never change. For that, i am glad...

YamCha;
10:30 PM

Sunday, April 23, 2006

haiz..i just request for photos from sk..and when i see these photos..i cried..lol..dunno why too..maybe because it brings back a lot of memories bah..like those very sadding ones..and i rmbed!!!i forgotten to take pic with lik teck and some of the 4E1 picx!!

YamCha;
12:04 AM

Saturday, April 22, 2006

ha...back for blog after such a long time..lol..ytd was the 26 speech day and the last speech day celebration, before ctss move off to commonwealth. ha..great day for me..had a great time taking photos...well talking about photos..i was suppose to take a photo with chek wye! my fellow ex-SI..and of course jacelyn! ha..but that cadet...dunno what's wrong with his photograhic skills man...both jacelyn and my camera has no photo!!argh! i really want that photo!lol...after that i went to mac for dinner with sh and sharon...well..that marks the end of yesterday. Today was a not so great day..i woke up late but still manage to wake up in time for the interview with the undertaker. lol..dun ask me why i wanna interview an undertaker. It's part of my cca.lol. nth much though..just some interesting fact that i found out about undertakers and the person who makes up for the dead...tough job for them...ha.

YamCha;
9:13 PM

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Haiz. Many things have changed ever since the end of orientation II. I realised that i am no longer close to the people whom i was close b4...i mean friends that is. A lot of them left PJC, and left my life. I dunno why and i told everyone that i hate that kinda feeling. I know nothing last forever, but...isnt it a bit too short for a friendship? Sobz. *Confused* u can practically spot me lost and depress whenever i am alone. Very easy to spot. Someone with a dark shadow following ard her and on her head floating? That's probably me. Too many friendships had ended and never to be resumed..a whole lot of them, only stopped when i enter sec school...tell me is there anything wrong with me? sobz...the last friendship that had ended because of some stupid reason left me with a very big scar in my heart that till now i can never forget. Some people should know..it was such an unforgottable memory. Now, i have not recover from my previous lost and many awaits in the future i think. How am i gonna face them? Someone tell me. Having to go through this kinda lost is something that can be very hurting and i swear that i would never want to go through this anymore. Nvr mind about that...i feel like my privacy had just been invaded and my actions are being copyrighted. Whoever that is ..my gang of 6 should know and of course, sh and sharon should know. lol. !!!!!!!! I hate pple who copy my actions..my kind of expression, my kind of laugter and even my kind of sayings. I HATE it. If i realise anyone who copies my idea shall...hmm..not pay dearly that is..i'll just stop this kind of actions, adopt a new unique action and let them do it all they want. haiz..just someone tell me my flaws. PLEASE.

YamCha;
10:23 PM

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Yoz. What a fun yet rotten day..so sad!..y am i so contradicting? You wanna know?...lol..even if u dont wanna know i'll still tell..lol. Ha. Had much cheers and fun today..and really DARWIN was high man.but i think as compared, WALLA still rocks. ahaha. Haiz. lots of nice games, know lots of pple and yar! blast! today was the so called "i know a lot more friends" day. hahaha..haiz..today after the orientation programme ended at ard 5.10 pm and the whole of the cheer leading squad and the performance group went down to discuss about the programme. The cheer leading group, including me, unknowingly became the performance cum cheering group. ok..next is what is rotten about today..while waiting for the ogls and the house i/cs to come down to brief us about the performance, i went up to the hall to see what were they doing. however,by the time i went up, they were already leaving the hall..i went down again..and guess wat...i think my previous og pple should know...I SPRAINED MY ANKLE!!!!!! Yar..accident prone me. VERY accident prone lor. Luckily it's not like last time when i twisted my ankle and unable to move for the next 24 hours..not that serious, but just a mild sprain..enough to make me feel painful..ahaha..but this time i still can walk on the stairs..just slowly...lol..still gonna wear shoe but i'll walk slowly..looks a bit weird while walking..not going to see any doc. NO CHINESE PHYSICIAN! NEVER! PHOBIA!!!lol.

YamCha;
9:53 PM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

heya. update again. Haiz...i've seen many people come and go by my life often..seen quite a lot of familiar faces today and said hi to them..lol..sort of felt sad for myself..people are just weird eh? They can be good to u for like a few months, even to a year, but as time goes by, even the "hi(s)" and "byes" are gone. Why? I dunno..i went through this kind of friendship once and the feeling is just saddening. My friend, for some of u who may know, just apparently stopped all conversations with me and treated me like a total alien..no reasons given,nothing, just sudden break. Haiz...i hate to go through this again...in fact, i dont want to go through it again. It's terrible..even if i changed to a new environment in pjc, things dont get any better. But at least for the moment, the "hi" still remains...just a silent wave..nvm. i get a scolding when i forgotten to dump my dirty laundry in the washing machine..i derserved that la.

YamCha;
7:21 PM

Monday, March 06, 2006

Yoz. Back for more updates again. Ytd i went out with sy to look for her school..lolz..cuz i have nothing to do at home..ahaha..went to sa..then marina square....nothing to shop...in the end we went to JE...i bought a new pair of sandals..cost me 13.90!lol..haha...O2 began today and the activities were the SAME....so sian...hopefully ppl will be high tmr cuz got mass dance! yay!!!!!!!siao..zi high..no more my original dance partner liao..hopefully i find someone equally good!!!!ppl in my og not too bad! friendly i would say...hopefully tmr i dun self enthu again! see how first bah..maybe if ppl dun self enthu..then i dun self enthu lor

YamCha;
9:17 PM